To my beloved Supernatural Fandom: Get a fucking grip!

To my beloved Supernatural Fandom: Get a fucking grip! (A pissed off blog.)

When I started watching Supernatural, I was the only one in my whole circle of people who watches that show, as it was a small show on one of the channels that airs mostly American stuff, but since SPN was new then – 2007 – they aired it in dead times (1pm and 7pm) and I only watched it out of curiosity, didn’t know what it was about, but seeing the 'Supernatural' logo got me, and I started watching, I don’t remember exactly but Phantom Traveler was one of the first episodes I've watched.

And it took me a year and a half or two after finishing season one to get back to the show, when the same channel (Dubai One) aired season two. But I couldn’t bear to watch it on a weekly basis knowing that season four was almost done in the US. I started downloading it and I watched it alone every night. It was summer time, and that summer was horrible, so watching SPN helped me to feel better, I mean seeing Dean alone man *Sigh* ;))

And, by the time I reached season four I was 100% addicted to the show, the boys, Cas, Bobby, everything. And dude, the end of season four, with Lucifer about to rise wooo… so cliffy I was dying. And then I went to check when the new season is going to be aired, season five, and with doing that I slipped into a big massive fandom, one hell of a crazy ass awesome fandom called 'The Supernatural Fandom' and I started talking to people through Facebook and TVloop on Facebook and wow, I was amazed I mean I was hooked on shows before but such devotion and craziness, I didn’t see before. And then, I went to pages and talked to people, and even started working on my fanfiction.

And the whole time through season five – whish I was no longer watching it alone – I got to know more people. And I was SO proud to be one of the Supernatural fans.

But, that was during season five… coz after that things totally changed.

Season five was epic, the wrap up of the whole story, the master piece of a great mind, Eric Kripke's mind.

And during this season we knew – me for the first time – that season five was the end of the show, and Kripke said he doesn’t want to do more seasons coz he ended his already planned five seasons' show. We respected that, but as fans, crazy ones too, we didn’t accept it. Not only we loved our boys too much to let go of them but we also hated that SPN with its high ratings and massive amount of fans is going to be over. And it was a riot, all over the world – I live in Egypt and my EgyWinSister were pissed too, and the network (C-bitch-W) decided to renew the show, but Eric stepped down and… Sera G. took over – then we didn’t know it was going to be shit, we thought it’s a chance for the show and us, but, it really wasn’t. Because that woman knows shit about the show.

Season six…

After the great ending of the fifth season of Supernatural, the ending that got us all sob, we were waiting on pins and needles for the sixth season, I mean season five ended in a semi cliffy way. Sam didn’t die – or was it Sam or not? Cas is back and looking super sexy, Bobby is Bobby, and Dean went to live with Slut-face, known as Lisa. So, we wanted to know what is going to happen next. With Sam, Dean, Cas, heaven and hell, or heaven mostly, everything, as a fan I was super excited and couldn’t wait until September to watch.

And season six arrived, Season 6 Episode 1 'Exile on Main Street', or, like I love to call it, THE WORSE premiere ever. So fucking disappointing. Dean was lame, Sam was plain, the freaking Campbells and bitch face Lisa. Way too many things to feel weird about the episode, plus, Dean was driving a pick up truck, while THE IMPALA <3 was in the garage :'(

Way too many people agreed on that, season six didn’t start like we wanted, or the way we used to. But hey, give it another chance, and hell we gave it another and another and another chance, I mean the whole season didn’t have but a few solid episodes, and the rest was shit. Caged Heat, Appointment in Samara, humm, and the episodes Kripke came to work on at the end, fixing the shit Sera did the whole season. And even with that, we spent half of the finale with freaking Lisa and her stupid kid (I know I hate them too much for many people's liking but suck it up, my freaking blog dude).

And not only Lisa came out of no where in the first place, but we had to deal with her, in the most ridiculous way.

The Cas episode was awesome, but it didn’t explain all. And this was the main theme in this season, nothing was fully explained, and not in Eric's way to leave us wondering in a smart way, no, it was stupidly done, meaning that something was wrong from the start, and no one cared to fix it. We had many laughs – The French Mistake, and the Old West ep, and and and, but damn, since when SPN was only for laughter? It wasn’t. We always had fun, but we shed some tears too, drama, friendship, brotherhood. And all those were factors we missed on the 6th season.

And it was the start of the shit we have to deal with now… how? I tell you.

Before, when the seasons were aired I wasn’t around, but I knew for sure that when an ep turns out bad, people go nuts and bite Eric's head off and tell him to do better next time – I've a solid source – but now, when an ep goes wrong, people say 'Humm, at least it was funny' ohhh shut up! We aren’t watching a damn sitcom; we are watching a drama show…

And now, the seventh season is being aired, and same shit is going on, and worse, not only for the show and the plot, but the fans as well. I mean it reached the point of people saying 'fuck who ever doesn’t like the new season'?? WTF is that? Since when SPN fans talk like that? With EACH OTHER. Oh, since things are shitty, and the show is way out of its normal awesome track, they are focusing on other shit and leaving the main deal… shit like who got Twitter and who didn’t? Who is pregnant and who is not? Why people treat blah how? Did you see who posted what about that or this or whatever crap? WTF guys?

Before, no one cared about images, and we all used to talk and have different opinions and no one talked like that… It was awesome, then, but now, its…

Living in denial, no one wants to admit things are batshit now, and the show is not what we used to like, hint why people are overprotective now, and why they don’t talk about the episodes like it used to be, and only focus on the outfits or who came and who left, and before when someone had an opposite opinion we used to respect it, not say 'fuck you' ladies…

Before I used to be proud of being one of the Supernatural awesome Fandom, but now, I doubt it, because this is turning into a freaking cult of a damn gathering of groupies, who cheer like idiots for whatever reason… we lost the main goal of being fans, to direct our favorite show to the best, not accept whatever they give us and jump up and down. This sucks, guys, get a fucking grip. Reconsider your reasons of being fans of this show, and stop being so damn radical. We have enough of those out there, we can't afford some more.

I want to be proud again with the fandom I joined and loved… Team Free Will!

A Death Celebration.

A Death Celebration (Another pissed off blog… Half of this blog was written a while ago, but I only needed to be calm-er to finish it, and time…)

This blog, and before we start, won't be the favorite blog for many people I know and probably check my stuff but never tell. That's what you get guys, not my fault that the world is a fucked up place…

Okay, basically, if you're an American, you won't like this, criticizing your government and all. That's just a clarification (Another one).

So, where were we when Osama Bin Laden was "killed"? I was asleep, well; I live in Egypt, different time line and all. When I woke up I knew that… wait for it ... that jerk is dead. But I was still sleepy, so I asked my aunt…

'What? Says whom?'

She said, 'It was on the news; Obama said the seals killed him, and oh, they dumped his body in the ocean.'

I was still sleepy, so I meant to check internet and all the news channels that I trust, aka, no CNN, Fox, or such ones. So, I kept watching the news for a little bit, and well, the more I watched, the more I felt something was wrong, but again, I'm an easily to get bored person, I stopped watching and said 'screw it I don’t give a shit' and turned on my laptop to check on the important stuff, my Facebook, Twitter, and my stories reviews.

But, of course, it was worse than ... what? The Oscars' night? Yeah, well whatever that was, it was worse than the last Oscars. Posts and shits everywhere, that I thought Obama was the new God in town or something, was he? No one told me… Anyway, I kept myself away from all the posts, comments and everything, kept lurking online but away. And saw what I never thought would ever see.

I saw frenzy, a death celebration, more than what a savage can do. And all that, for something no one can be sure of 100%.

So basically now, when someone we hate gets killed we go out in the street and dance around? Humm, that would be um, fucked up? Yeah that’s the word I was looking for, I mean who does that? Death was always a sacred thing, you don’t gloat when someone dies, even if that person is your enemy… um, IF that person actually died. Oh yeah, we are in the part no one will like, not no one, but bear with me.

Okay, ten years of searching and nothing happens, but… ta ta daaaa, 9 months and we have a new baby, oops, shoot, sorry, I meant another dead baddy. Wow, those were some bad ass 9 months guys, kudos CIA, Obama, and all the gangsters who work with them. But man, that was out of the blue, and Obama came to tell 'his' people with a victorious smile and the attitude, almost brought me in tears, that man… he always does that to me when he talks to the people, I mean the charisma alone! That man should totally get a damn Oscar, hear me guys, the Oscars' people!!!!!

But hey, who am I to say anything. The man spoke. We all sit and listen. And say Amen after too (New god, remember). Not that all the shit he said was shit and totally nonsense, or that dumping a body in the damn ocean is like hiding evidence or something, I thought the CIA and the navy watch CSI and read Agatha Christie's novels, but this, guys, this one went a little bit too far. But another guess, that I'm too stupid to understand this brilliant plan, needs an American brain to get it? Maybe… Blame my Egyptian retarded mind.

But they had an excuse, I mean; Muslims throw the dead bodies in the sea! Hahahahha, its been over a month and this is still funny, god, yeah dudes, newsflash, we – Muslims – dump dead dudes in the sea, totally, we love to get eaten by fishes, you know, we are all blah… they respected the dead man, and gave him a respectful burial, in the sea with Nemo and his friends, its delightful there down there, should tell us the spot, maybe if its fun, I get to call for a spot, Ariel, Nemo, and all of our animated friends. Nemo, the sequel, starring Osama Bin Laden's corpse.. New hit movie, in theaters soon.

Fuck that, who said the man is dead? Oh, God said, oh, oops, I mean Obama said. Well, I've another God, the one and only God. I won't believe the man who wants to grant the next elections, I'm not American, I don’t give a damn, coz hello, lets face it, Obama screwed us all with his sweet words once, he'd do it again, and the next one, and next, its politics, benefits first. Oil, money, shit… the usual.

And lets not forget who was Bin Laden's BFF one day, the administration who supported him and funded him as well but then, it was to bring other administrations down – Iran and Iraq – but hey, then he wasn’t a terrorist, and all he did was good since Uncle Sam said so… Talk about hypocrisy.

All in all, this whole thing was a massive piss off, for anyone who had brains and some civilization, celebrating death? And not in the old Gypsy way that honors it, no, but in the savage way, I bet if they had the body they'd drag it all over - Roman Arena way – and guys, this was shit, gave a pretty clear idea of how Americans function.. 

And even if they don’t care how the world thinks about them, this was a whole new level. Crowd that believes in anything their administration tells them despite what the truth might be, they hear, cheer and say Amen. Doesn’t matter what's right or wrong, what's true or what's false, what matters is the good news they wanted to hear… "WE are the best nation in the world, and the rest suck, we get our enemies and kill them, then dump them in the sea. Yeehaaa, we rock bro"…

Shame, a big one too, like I said that day 'The international day of bullshit', which not many people got it, being so drunk with victory, fake one, but hey, the American administration did it again. 'Fake it until you make it' or, a quote I heard once…

"People will believe a big lie sooner than a little one, and if you repeat it frequently enough, people will sooner or later believe it." -Walter Langer

Which is perfectly true and applies here.

All I'm saying that, some people really need to use their melon for once, start hating the world and think you're perfect, no one is, different isn’t bad, you only make it seem bad because you're reflecting your ugly self on it. They only make it sound and seem bad for oil and money, get a damn grip, think for yourself and not make others think for you… yeah, its hard in the beginning but guess what, lots of people do it. Don't be a sheep, where someone puts it, it stays. There is a whole different world out there, believe it or not, it affects you. 

One last thing, Karma is a bitch.

You disappoint me…

You disappoint me... (A pissed off blog).

This wasn’t the best week – nice start – but true, it wasn’t a good week, so busy, weird weather, I was sick, and lots of people pissed me off as well, the week before a holiday. So all in all, I'm so freaking glad this week is over…

A lame week, not fully, but mostly, lots of stuff to do, places to go, school, school, and some more school. But that’s not the point of writing this, I mean I can handle tough times, plus, going back to school was my choice, so I have to suck it up and deal with it, and I'm.

The problem is people, at school, at home, and plainly, my friends. Coz simple, who you talk to – face to face or virtually – all the time, or at least most of the time? Friends and family, yeah, that’s the answer I wanted. And as much as I love most of them, they get on my nerves sometimes, (and I said most coz some people I really think my love for them isn’t there anymore, or respect… soon to be ex-friends.)

A small gesture, a senseless word or even an attitude, that might tick me off, but I'm not into the high school drama deal, so mostly I let go. (Unless it's my brother and we break a fight, its always exciting lol) … But yeah, I let go most of the time, not because I can't do anything but coz I try to be a nice person and to stay cool, I mean what's after a big fight? And what's after a big fight after a stupid small thing? … So, it was trying to be the bigger person, which I know now isn’t really working with many – most – of the people I know.

I feel like we are getting no where, yeah, I blame my headache. But the point is, this week many people disappointed me, friends and family. Some were rude, bloody freaking rude, some were careless and a braty sissies, and humm let me think who else, oh got it, some were ungrateful.

I don’t want to be a whiny bitch, I just want to say that even with the sarcasm and the smartass mouth I always go with, I'm really not that fixed or strong, especially when it comes from a friend, and mostly when it comes from a close friend… if they read this, they will know themselves, they might go pouty and get upset, well, before you do all that, I have one thing to say, screw you, you upset me first.

And if you upset me, you'd know, trust me you'd, well if you cared enough to know me, and we know each other for a while now, and you still don’t get it... ain't my fault buddy, you should work on your social skills, or get a brain! Sounds like a good idea right?

Only a few signs, when I get 'disappointed' I won't just go and tell you, not if you did that more than once, I won't even talk then, I will keep it simple. Its easy to know, I'm a chatty person, I never answer in one sentence, I talk and joke and, you know… when I'm quiet, or cutting it short, you should think again, well, if you care anyway…

Long story short, I had to say something, to write about my bad feelings and not let it eat me inside out. Because somehow I care, at least about me. 

I only wish I didn’t make someone feel bad like others made me feel…