A Friendship Vow #2

It has been a while since I wrote a blog, especially one about friends. Its known for the few people who read this blog that I write stories when I’m in a good mood, and I write blogs when I’m so mad and wanna rant and vent about something, mostly something very annoying that talking to a dear friend or family won’t help making it less annoying, so the only way to scream in public and maybe deliver an indirect massage is through this… Feel free not to read, or to read, it’s just a blog that not so many people read so won’t be addressing the world, simply no one gives a shit.

I really appreciate the existence of a good friend in my life, they are like a second family and sometimes you ask your friends for help before your family… so when you are hurt from one of those you considered close, it really hurts like a fucking bitch! And I don’t have time for drama or fights or any of the high-school free gimme drama time, like dear *Murtaugh said “I’m too old for this shit!” so here comes the blog’s benefits.

So, today we are going to go through 4/5 types of friends I’ve lost or going to lose, sounds sad I know but well, you can’t have a forced friendship and you can’t be friends with people you really don’t like and hurt you, unless you are an angel who forgets or a hypocrite who can deal with people you whom you hate and able to lie in their faces… I’m no angel and I can’t do this second thing, because simply when you lose something that wasn’t meant, you get something or someone better.

So, let’s just agree that when you lose a friend doesn’t mean any of you are bad persons or whores or whatever the name, you are just not good with each other, it didn’t work or one of you is simply a whore :P

So,

Type (1): Annoying & Clingy:

Those you meet once and suddenly they are everywhere, Facebook, they have your phone number, email, want to hangout and meet your family and friends, and suddenly “we are best friends right?” Uh, hell no, we are not, really we are not, we have nothing in common except for the doomed day we met, at work or a wedding or whatever… Then the only thing you tell yourself is to RUN!!!

Type (2): Stalker & boring:

That type is mix between 1 & 2, and those are mostly people you meet at work or school, the person who has no life of any sort, and suddenly they are doing everything you do. Wear clothes similar to yours, listen to the same music and scary enough they have a nickname for you, and suddenly they just talk like you, (even though they have commented on that in a negative way) it takes a few months to see another fake copy or yourself… From those, again, I RUN! But I do it smoothly, and thank God, only one person I met like that…

Part of type two is also the Gloomy one, The Victim (محبي النكد والدراما), they are boring and they just love whining all the time with no intention of changing, they want the world to change because they are not ready for it, but hell no they change, they are perfect and always victims, knowing such a type of people SUCKS the life out of you.. They always want you and ask for the help, but when you look around they are gone… Well, if you are gone in critical times, you can go forever. Adious bitch!

The next ones are not totally lost, but its hanging on a thread, I mean being annoyed of a friend is different than being ready to lose that friend. Mistakes are different than disrespect and ignorance. And for those I shout and they are the reason I’m writing this, just one last chance… Careful bitch, you are in a bad position.

Type (3): Reckless careless (منفض) always casual person:

Now, that is very dangerous, I mean it’s cool to be casual with your friends, but it’s not cool to just forget they excite. Being casual gives space to you and your friends to be free around you and to go on with their lives and to share whenever they want, it’s a good thing to be cool and casual but sometimes it gets a bit loose, and then problem happens.

Must talk about type 4 because they join in a very critical area…

Type (4): Sneaky and turns into a bitch:

Its type (3) with a twist when it gets out of hand, meaning by examples:

Example: Going on a trip without telling your friends – who meant to join is reckless and stupid don’t get me wrong, BUT, knowing that one of your (so called) best friends almost got married or getting married (you knew through social media or a stranger) is bitchy! That is a dick move.

See, big difference,

When you are reckless its usually coz you are just (menafad) don’t care or don’t think through your actions, but I change my birthday party dates & make time as for you as demanded, and then I find out about your stuff from strangers or social fucking media, fuck privacy, don’t pull this off, I invented it, privacy my ass, private people don’t share shit! (You know who you are) then that is IT!

Have the guts to say so, have the guts to stop a friendship, don’t just fuck it and screw around, it hurts people and no second chances, friendships are like thing glass, once it cracks, it breaks, it never mends. Even with years if we ever became friends again, it’s never the same.

Only regret is, I’m sorry letting type (4) in my life, sorry for thinking you are important and you are really nothing, nothing will make it right, and if I can rewind time I would really delete you earlier than that.

Type (3), please don’t turn into (4), it fucking hurts!

On that note we add the vows again with an extra vow this time because none of us has the time to fight and like a friend of mine commented on the last blog.

- Till politics do us apart.

- Till being a jerk/bitch do us apart.

- Till meeting new-friends or getting in a relationship (whipped) do us apart.

- Till the nothingness do us apart. (Back off and stay there in the shadows, remember; no fights they ain’t worth it…)

Not sure if that will make a difference, I lost nothing anyway, it’s not as funny as the one before and maybe just bitter, for those I lost, I regret nothing because it wasn’t really working.

And for those I’m losing or trying not to lose: I hope this makes a difference and if it didn’t & we are gone, it’s better because it will make more room for those who actually matter.

Don’t forget the vows when you meet a new better friend…

Asya,

Dec 11^th 2014

*Wink

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* Murtaugh is a character in the Lethal Weapon movie series ;)

إرحموا "بي دي إف" أبونا

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طيب بالصلاة على النبي كده ندخل في الموضوع على طول عشان أنا على أخري بعيد عنكم... قالك إن فيه فتوى بتقولك إن قراءة الملفات البي دي إف حرام شرعًا عشان بتعد مسروقة ومتاخده قال إيه دون حقوق وحركات كده.. طيب في سؤالين دلوقتي، الأول هو لامؤاخذه وحياة أمك؟ وده طبعا للي طلع الفتوى دي بغض النظر عن هو مين فعلا حتى لو المفتي على فكرة.. السؤال التاني، هو أنا بعد الهبل اللي احنا قاعدين نفتي فيه ده ... ولا أقولك بلاش خللي السؤال التاني لنفسي عشان ماخدش حياء أي حد من الإخوة.

بجد والله؟ القراءة اللي من النوع ده حرام، طب لو سلفت لحد كتاب، حرام؟ ولا لو استعرت الكتاب ده، ولا لو اشتريت برفان تقليد، ولا شنطة بردو تقليد، ولا أي نوع ملابس ولا ولا ولا.. يا جدعان إحنا أصلا عايشين على التقليد والستوك وكل العبط ده، ولا هو حلو في حاجات ووحش في حاجات إن شاء الله؟ يعني لو جبت مثلا تيشيرت "GAP" تقليد أبقى حلوة وبوفر ولو حَملت كتاب من على النت أبقى فاسقة ويحب إقامة الحد عليا، يا أخي *** (كلمة قبيحة). فعلا والله حاجة تحرق الدم، هو الأخ ولا الأخت اللي مزعلين نفسهم أوي كده عشان حد بدل ما إشترى الكتاب المبجل بتاع سعادتهم راح حمله أونلاين.. طب ليه أصلا عمل كده، ما أهو:

1-                       مش معاه يجيب الكتاب

2-                       الكتاب فعلا غالي أوي

3-                       مش عارف الكاتب كويس وعايز يجرب

4-                       مكسل يروح يشتري اصلا

طيب، رقم 1 و2 دول كلنا جيه علينا وقت إما كنا مفلسين أو أسعار الكتب زفت وغالية جدا وبالمناسبة دي أحب اوجه *الشكر* لدار الشروق وبلومزمبري على رفع أسعار الكتب ربنا يحرقكوا يارب، قالك طبعة فاخرة، حمرا ولامؤاخذة. أنا يا سيدي مش عايز زفت طبعات خ*ا فاخرةـ ورق لحمة وإنجز ولا انت لازم تعمل سبوبة على قفايا يعني وترجع تقوللي أه معلش أصل الورق غالي. طب أنا أعمل إيه كطالب أو شخص مش معاه يشتري كتب بتبدأ من 30 لـ90 و100 كمان، حتى لو معايا اشتري واحد مش هايبقى معايا اجيب التاني، لما يبقوا كلهم بالأسعار دي. طيب أنا المطلوب مني أبطل قراءة ولا أشتري من على الرصيف الكتب المقلدة ولا أجيب "البي دي إف" واللي هو بردو نسخة؟ 

أه وحاجة كمان حضرتك، بالنسبة للإحتكار، ده بردو حرام ولا حلال حرتك يعني؟ ولا لو دار النشر بتاعة سعادتك يبقى تمام وكفاءة ولو دار تانية أو قناة أو أي حاجة يبقى لامؤاخذة "كخة".. الصبر من عندك يارب!

وطبعا عندنا السبب الـ3، واللي أنا شخصيا ينطبق عليا. إن في كاتب جديد وأنا مش طالبة أدفع 40 جنيه عشان أشتري كتاب الباشا والله أعلم بقا البطيخة قرعة ولا بعيد عنك حمرا. أصل الكتاب الجديد عامل زي جواز الصالونات كده، الفرق في التكلفة بس غالبا في أمل إن الكتاب يبقى كويس.. الموضوع التاني... إحم، مش وقته دلوقتي.

يعني مثلا في كاتب أنا لقيت كتابة بالصدفة وكنت عايزة أقراه جدا والجميل إن مافيش منه نسخ في السوق خالص، الكتاب أسمه "بيكاسو وستاربكس" لكاتب كنت أول مرة أسمع عنه "ياسر حارب"، طيب الكتاب كان قدامي أونلاين ومكانش موجود في السوق وكمان مع احترامي الكبير للكاتب أنا كان عمري ما سمعت عنه وكمان ده مقالات متفرقة وكمان ولا حد من اصحابي يعرف الكاتب ولا قرأ الكتاب. طب أعمل أيه يا عم المفتي؟ هه؟ طبعا حملت الكتاب وقريته وكمان عجبني، ولما يبقى موجود في السوق إن شاء الله هاشتريه.

زيه زي سلسلة "صانع الظلام" لتامر إبراهيم، بصراحة ماكنتش واثقة انهم حلويين أصلا، معلش تامر عشرة من أيام "مجانين" و "مولوتوف" بس في بتاع 3 كتب ليه ومالهمش رابع ومش كاملين، أنا استنيت لما الجزءين بتوع صانع الظلام بقوا موجودين وقريتهم، وطبعا هما من منشورات دار بلومزبري القطرية *حسبي الله ونعم الوكيل* ومش عارفة كل واحد فيهم بـ35 أو 40 جنيه، وبصراحة أنا مش هاشتري سمك في ميه.

وفي بقا كتاب جديد إسمه "العزيف" بتاع كاتب أنا مش فاكرة أسمه، المهم ان ثمن الكتاب 40 جنيه مصري لا غير، يعني بنفس ثمن كتاب "دوامات التدين" ليوسف زيدان.. أنا مش بقلل من قيمة أي حد هنا بس هو مثال مش أكتر، في فرق الخبرة والجمهور والقيمة الأدبية لكتاب تاريخ وقصة مع كامل احترامي للاثنين.

في بقى النوع الثالث من الكتب، واللي هو الكتب اللي ممكن تستعمل – لامؤاخذه – كمناديل للتواليت ومسح المؤخرات، اللي انا فعلا لما اشتريت واحد فيهم مقدرتش أكمل فيه فصلين، ولحد دلوقتى ندمانه على الـ30 لحلوح اللي دفعتم – منكم لله يا كفرة! الفكرة اني هاقراه هاقراه بس عشان أحلل الفلوس اللي اندفعت فيه، اصله مش فلوس حرام، والله مش حرام.. وفي واحد تاني الحمد لله إني جبته "بي دي إف" عشان انا لو كان اندفع ليا فيه فلوس ماكنتش هاخده بردو، ومش هاقول مين عشان عيب وكده. دع غير الكتب الكليشيه واللي اتعمل زيها زيليون مرة، واللي اتعملت عشان الثورة وأهو كله أكل عيش، وطبعا ده غير المتشبهين بالكتاب الكبار، ومقلدي أحمد خالد توفيق وأحمد مراد وفي نفس الحال كارهيهم... الموضوع كبير يا جماعة!! #عادل_إمام_ستايل

وفي عندك الكتب النادرة اللي لو صاحبها رفعها اونلاين حتي بفلوس هانشتري. المهم أن الناس اللي زعلانة أصلا كتبهم في كل حته وما شاء الله يعني، وبعدين فين الكتب الالكترونية ولا ماسمعتوش عنها؟ مافيش أصلا، يا جدعان حرام عليكم! 

أه، في ناس تانية مش بتعرف تقرا كتب غير أونلاين –دلع أنا عارفة بس هانعمل إيه؟

وبعدين فعلا، الكتاب لو يستاهل هيبيع، ولو انت واثق من نفسك مش هاتفرق معاك عشان هي مش سبوبة، عندك مثالين على كده:

1-                       عمر طاهر – ربنا يعمر بيته – حضرت له توقيع كتاب "زمن الغم الجميل" السنه اللي فاتت في مكتبة "ألف" فرع المعادي، وأخر كلمة قالها كانت "وعلى فكرة كتبي كلها بي دي إف مش لازم تشتروا" هو حتى لو بيهزر عارف ان اللي بيحبه وعارفه، هايشتري.

2-                       مثل بعيد شوية بس سديقي العزيز لسه مفكرني بيه من شوية، منير لما ألبومه اتسرب مسألش إزاي وفين وإمتى؟ بس سأل، هو عجب الناس؟

أعتقد أن المثال واضح...

المهم يعني عشان أنا زهقت، فعلا الرحمة، كفاية فتي بقى. ولو على الملكية الفكرية، الأولى إن يكون في قانون مش فتوى، عندنا فتاوى كتير يا عم الشيخ، والمحلدين عددهم بيزيد. كمان الموضوع موضوع قيمة مش تَدين، وإفتكروا إن في فرق كبير عشان النسخ دي مأخدتش أي من حقوق الكاتب ولا مسحت إسمه ولا أي حاجة، وعلى رأي اللمبي، يا تعملوا كتب بأسعار كويسة يا تنفروا الكولة..

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-        أنا عادة ما باكتب إنجليزي فسامحوني لو في غلطات، ومش طبعا الكلام العامي، مش عايزة رخامة :P

-        الحاجة التانية ده رأيي الشخصي وكل واحد حر في رأيه

مع السلامو عليكم،

آسيا خليل

18/11/2013

12:09 am

A Friendship Vow.

Ever since I started blogging and I wanted to write about friends and friendship, its really critical in my life, more than so many other things like school or politics or, or… 

Thing is, as usual I blog when I'm super mad at something and this time I wanted it to be different because I don't want to piss off my friends who read this blog – the ones who even read, but that’s not all (because they should know the sarcasm better :P ), I wanted it to be more fun and sarcastic than mad and cynical.

So, today is the day. Not only I'm kind of mad at a friend, and I lost one a few weeks ago, but also I had a funny kind of sarcastic idea today. I got lost in my thoughts – as usual – thinking that I really want to watch the movie 'The Vow', and how I'm such a sucker for that kind of movies, and then I had that small little light that we always see in cartoons when you get an idea, it clicked. BLING… Why don't we have friendship vows like we have for Marriage?!

Yeah, really, it'd be a good idea. I mean for me friends are very important and I said before, even though friends can be a rough pain in the ass sometimes, you can't live without them (at least me). Friends are like a second family, you can be crazier with them, and even though some say you choose your friends, I don’t agree with that. You usually choose which friend to keep, but think about it, most of the friends you probably have you got to know by pure chance, work, school, through friends, Supernatural ;), you had to talk to them a few times then BAM, it happened. Most of those times you don’t choose the time, place, or the person you're talking to, but you choose who not to talk to, later.

And, yeah a perfect friend is fiction, but a good one isn’t. You just need to accept that friend the way you're, and don't try to preach them, or change them, many people will appreciate that. Not all, coz simply some are bitches and nothing works with them, been there.

So, what happens? Life happens. Bitch, please!

Life is the excuse, because we aren’t doomed by shit. Blah blah blah, excuses for the win. School, oh, poor you. Work, awww, my heart is really breaking for you. And oh, I've another lovely one and I'm not kidding, headache, yep, headache takes your phone, your email, and stops you from talking to people. Humm what else? Many excuses depend on the people you know.

Yeah, it can take a while to talk, and sure school and work and all get in between but there is a difference between using this as an excuse, and that it is the truth. BIG fat difference. Because if YOU WANT, you'd make time, or at least try, but that's IF you want.

Using such excuses is shit, heard a lot of stuff and said a few too, so I can tell the difference. And it is disrespectful to treat a friend like that. At least have the guts to say: "Guys, we can't be friends anymore, coz I'm whipped, my girl wants me all for herself." You know, it'd make more sense.

So, back to the vows. In order to make things serious, we can have a little vow for best friends only, coz the others you meet or talk to casually don't really matter like your budds who you love the most and trust the most.

Instead of "Till death do us apart" (it's not the way we say it here, but we have a similar concept.)

It should be:

-Till politics do us apart. (My Egy friends will relate the most.)

-Till being a jerk/bitch do us apart.

-Till meeting new-friends or getting in a relationship (whipped) do us apart.

I think that qualifies the most common reasons of why people stop being friends. I went through two of the phases (last two) and was about to go into the first one during the last year, still a chance I'm gonna head there. Maybe there are other reasons that need to be added, but I think number2 works for so many things… Suggestions? :D

Even Dreams.

I don’t know why I always blog when I'm in a bad mood. I mean when things are fine and everything is going just normal – not so many times now but you know what I mean – I get ideas for blogs but I never actually work on it, mostly I forget but I also feel that there is no need to write them down. I think its like what A.K Tawfik once said, that writers and poets – and here bloggers – usually write when they are sad or in pain, there is selfishness in people that they don’t write about their happiness, but they write about their pain. 

I won't call it selfishness, its just the need to do something, in my case, I want to keep it civil, I want to cry so hard, I want to scream so loud and go fight with the nearest person. I won't and I can't kill anybody either, so, I have nothing to do but to write. 

Not sure if this is any of your concern, but blogging is more about me, so I'm gonna talk about me. Even if no one read this, I still don’t care, I will still write it. Oh, back to the need to write instead of screaming…

These days are the worst days I ever lived, or will live, and I'm sure it can get worse. If you're Egyptian you will relate the most, and if you aren’t, your country probably has shit too, I mean what's the country that doesn’t have at least a pile of shit at the moment? Economy, politics, or a disaster or any kind? Yeah, the answer is no country, we are all living in the worst times ever. Shit everywhere, war, death, blood and in our case, it has been going on for over a year now, and its not stopping. Not anytime soon.

No one wants to be in a bad mood, and I'm no exception. I want to go out, have fun, study and finish the loads of stuff I need to do, work on my stories, all the stuff anyone would want to do, just go crazy most of the time and sit down and study for a while, then go crazy again. But that’s not the option now.

As I said, we have been in a mess for about a year and a half, some good moments but we are paying for it now, everything is falling down and going to hell, all the plans I made – not only me – are falling apart now. Lets count? Oh, okay, lets count…

Finishing school – finishing my stories – looking for a damn job – LIVING – humm, other stuff I won't share – and more other stuff.

Now, with the hell we are living in, I don’t see any of that happening, not even gonna dream they will happen, because I'm not sure it will. So negative, I know, but nothing to do but to be like that now. Because false hope is THE worst, when you have all the ambition in the world, and all the plans you can get, friends and family, everything you'd ask for as the moment, and, gradually, that’s being taken from you… now, future is being taken as well. And to be honest, I'm tired of the disappointments, I've faith and I won't lose that but in such times you question everything. When nothing is going right and everything is going wrong, when people die and you have nothing to do but to wait for your turn, happily, because you don’t want to live in this damn world again. And when bad people get away with all the shit they do. God, I'm even questioning the fact that I'm alive… am I? 

Or this is all a dream, a bad one? I really hope it’s the answer but I know it is not. Sadly its not. 

Fighting and arguing and thinking non stop for a whole day gets you tired, imagine doing that for over a year! Tired won't even cover it, and above all that, its so far I not worth it. I hate to say that and maybe so many people will disagree with me but, they will agree that we are tired, I'm tired, and future doesn’t seem good to me. So negative, I hear. Yes, I know, thanks Mr/Mrs obvious. 

Live my life and then talk!

Have some hope! I hear again, I freaking do, or I'd be dead now, but… again, things don’t seem good to me. 

I see blood, more blood and more fights, and yes, some stuff deserves the fight, but we also deserve a break. If anyone would recall, every two months, or less we all get depressed and disappointed, shall I count the dead this year or the year before, the blood, the nasty fights, or or or or? 

Yes, I shouldn’t allow grieve and desperation get to me, have faith, and trust God.

I know all that, I really do but I also need a break. Sadly, I can't get it, so instead of a break, its depression time. Or at least for me. 

Like I said, they are taking everything away from us, even our dreams. I can't even work on my dreams now, and all I think about is to give them all up and just leave. Leave this town. But who said it will be better? To leave the fight and just go, not only I'm letting my people down, but who said wherever I'm going will be better? – at least racism rules in some places, while others have economical shit, and and and – no one said, coz even with the crap my home is still better. So, to fight and die, or to leave like a coward. As you see, not too many options, and both aren’t really attractive.

All I want at the moment is to lie down and do nothing but crying. For now, that’s the only thing I feel like doing, empty room, no one around, dark, me alone crying, sounds good.. 

Hopefully I will get better, and well the whole world. I'm not so hopeful about it but, it doesn’t stay the same forever, just, wishing it won't get worse. 

This probably didn’t make any sense, right? Yeah, well, I'm crazy and I wrote it, what is your excuse to read? :P

To my beloved Supernatural Fandom: Get a fucking grip!

To my beloved Supernatural Fandom: Get a fucking grip! (A pissed off blog.)

When I started watching Supernatural, I was the only one in my whole circle of people who watches that show, as it was a small show on one of the channels that airs mostly American stuff, but since SPN was new then – 2007 – they aired it in dead times (1pm and 7pm) and I only watched it out of curiosity, didn’t know what it was about, but seeing the 'Supernatural' logo got me, and I started watching, I don’t remember exactly but Phantom Traveler was one of the first episodes I've watched.

And it took me a year and a half or two after finishing season one to get back to the show, when the same channel (Dubai One) aired season two. But I couldn’t bear to watch it on a weekly basis knowing that season four was almost done in the US. I started downloading it and I watched it alone every night. It was summer time, and that summer was horrible, so watching SPN helped me to feel better, I mean seeing Dean alone man *Sigh* ;))

And, by the time I reached season four I was 100% addicted to the show, the boys, Cas, Bobby, everything. And dude, the end of season four, with Lucifer about to rise wooo… so cliffy I was dying. And then I went to check when the new season is going to be aired, season five, and with doing that I slipped into a big massive fandom, one hell of a crazy ass awesome fandom called 'The Supernatural Fandom' and I started talking to people through Facebook and TVloop on Facebook and wow, I was amazed I mean I was hooked on shows before but such devotion and craziness, I didn’t see before. And then, I went to pages and talked to people, and even started working on my fanfiction.

And the whole time through season five – whish I was no longer watching it alone – I got to know more people. And I was SO proud to be one of the Supernatural fans.

But, that was during season five… coz after that things totally changed.

Season five was epic, the wrap up of the whole story, the master piece of a great mind, Eric Kripke's mind.

And during this season we knew – me for the first time – that season five was the end of the show, and Kripke said he doesn’t want to do more seasons coz he ended his already planned five seasons' show. We respected that, but as fans, crazy ones too, we didn’t accept it. Not only we loved our boys too much to let go of them but we also hated that SPN with its high ratings and massive amount of fans is going to be over. And it was a riot, all over the world – I live in Egypt and my EgyWinSister were pissed too, and the network (C-bitch-W) decided to renew the show, but Eric stepped down and… Sera G. took over – then we didn’t know it was going to be shit, we thought it’s a chance for the show and us, but, it really wasn’t. Because that woman knows shit about the show.

Season six…

After the great ending of the fifth season of Supernatural, the ending that got us all sob, we were waiting on pins and needles for the sixth season, I mean season five ended in a semi cliffy way. Sam didn’t die – or was it Sam or not? Cas is back and looking super sexy, Bobby is Bobby, and Dean went to live with Slut-face, known as Lisa. So, we wanted to know what is going to happen next. With Sam, Dean, Cas, heaven and hell, or heaven mostly, everything, as a fan I was super excited and couldn’t wait until September to watch.

And season six arrived, Season 6 Episode 1 'Exile on Main Street', or, like I love to call it, THE WORSE premiere ever. So fucking disappointing. Dean was lame, Sam was plain, the freaking Campbells and bitch face Lisa. Way too many things to feel weird about the episode, plus, Dean was driving a pick up truck, while THE IMPALA <3 was in the garage :'(

Way too many people agreed on that, season six didn’t start like we wanted, or the way we used to. But hey, give it another chance, and hell we gave it another and another and another chance, I mean the whole season didn’t have but a few solid episodes, and the rest was shit. Caged Heat, Appointment in Samara, humm, and the episodes Kripke came to work on at the end, fixing the shit Sera did the whole season. And even with that, we spent half of the finale with freaking Lisa and her stupid kid (I know I hate them too much for many people's liking but suck it up, my freaking blog dude).

And not only Lisa came out of no where in the first place, but we had to deal with her, in the most ridiculous way.

The Cas episode was awesome, but it didn’t explain all. And this was the main theme in this season, nothing was fully explained, and not in Eric's way to leave us wondering in a smart way, no, it was stupidly done, meaning that something was wrong from the start, and no one cared to fix it. We had many laughs – The French Mistake, and the Old West ep, and and and, but damn, since when SPN was only for laughter? It wasn’t. We always had fun, but we shed some tears too, drama, friendship, brotherhood. And all those were factors we missed on the 6th season.

And it was the start of the shit we have to deal with now… how? I tell you.

Before, when the seasons were aired I wasn’t around, but I knew for sure that when an ep turns out bad, people go nuts and bite Eric's head off and tell him to do better next time – I've a solid source – but now, when an ep goes wrong, people say 'Humm, at least it was funny' ohhh shut up! We aren’t watching a damn sitcom; we are watching a drama show…

And now, the seventh season is being aired, and same shit is going on, and worse, not only for the show and the plot, but the fans as well. I mean it reached the point of people saying 'fuck who ever doesn’t like the new season'?? WTF is that? Since when SPN fans talk like that? With EACH OTHER. Oh, since things are shitty, and the show is way out of its normal awesome track, they are focusing on other shit and leaving the main deal… shit like who got Twitter and who didn’t? Who is pregnant and who is not? Why people treat blah how? Did you see who posted what about that or this or whatever crap? WTF guys?

Before, no one cared about images, and we all used to talk and have different opinions and no one talked like that… It was awesome, then, but now, its…

Living in denial, no one wants to admit things are batshit now, and the show is not what we used to like, hint why people are overprotective now, and why they don’t talk about the episodes like it used to be, and only focus on the outfits or who came and who left, and before when someone had an opposite opinion we used to respect it, not say 'fuck you' ladies…

Before I used to be proud of being one of the Supernatural awesome Fandom, but now, I doubt it, because this is turning into a freaking cult of a damn gathering of groupies, who cheer like idiots for whatever reason… we lost the main goal of being fans, to direct our favorite show to the best, not accept whatever they give us and jump up and down. This sucks, guys, get a fucking grip. Reconsider your reasons of being fans of this show, and stop being so damn radical. We have enough of those out there, we can't afford some more.

I want to be proud again with the fandom I joined and loved… Team Free Will!