I hate you!

P.S: before we start, this can be sensitive for cream and strawberry, the chick flick peace lovers, so bitch off somewhere else. Adult material here guys, and no, not that kind of adult.

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'I hate you.' That is a pretty nasty thing to say, and it has an awful effect on whomever the person you may say/said to, even if you're angry or joking or actually mean it. But seriously, how many time any of us said it, and how many time you felt bad after saying it? Yeah, a lot and I felt bad for, few times only; you know the times you say 'I hate you' when you're mad and you don’t really mean it, but what if you said it to someone who deserves it? Like really did?

An awful person, an awful movie –yeah we all talk to our screens, don’t pretend to be sane, you wont be reading this :P

'Oh, no, hate is a strong word.' *Shoots myself* that is real, and at the same time stupid, that is a sentence which I said few times myself. But the thing is, do I care? Or I just say it to make myself look like a nice person, am I really nice? I don’t think so, well on occasions but truly is, I don’t really want to be nice, so guys, this is a stupid sentence, real – we agreed of this shit before – but to deactivate this sentence, I've another one for you all. 'Oh, no, love is a strong word.' Can anyone tell me I'm wrong here? Ta, ta, da, you can't, because 'LOVE' is another strong word, and yet, we say it to a lot of people, even a simple comment on Twitter you comment with love, which is something for dearest people not to waste on people you don’t even know, yeah you mean it and all blah, blah, but does that person deserves to receive 'I love you', maybe yes, maybe no, but with the same rule, others deserve the H word, 'I hate you'.

But, because we live in a double faced world, that weird people whom I wish to meet in person made up their own rules and made us follow, you can't hate stuff, you only can 'unlike it' 'don’t like it' or hum, what else, or say that they 'suck', like that won't hurt, I mean come on, it’s the same, yeah, hello, semantics!

I hate this movie; I don’t like this book, this actress suck, or this man is whatever. 

What is the deference? Being nicer? Or it's just a complement to get an extra cookie? 

Yeah, if you think the 'hate' word hurts, try the fake 'love' word, like when you see someone trying too hard to show their love to something or someone and you know they are not that devoted enough, only doing it for the extra cookie, or like one of my friends call it to 'suck up'.

Shall I give examples, no, I won't because you or me or someone you know have done this, either, saying I hate, or I love when they didn’t mean it, and they could have felt bad for it, and I didn’t only mean saying 'I hate' can make you feel bad, but also saying 'I love' to someone didn’t deserve. 

Yeah we should be nice, and yeah we should not feel bad for treating someone good even if they were bad, coz that's just us being nice and kind and good, but lets be a little bit of honest here, we are no angels, we love, we hate, and we do a lot of other things, we don’t usually like after, but lying to ourselves and to people and acting all nice just for the sake of a fake image of ourselves in the eyes of other people who probably won't be around for long anyway, that is – wait for it, coz its another H word – hypocrisy. 

At least have the guts to be honest, to be yourself, even if that means you were an awful person, coz after all that being freaking honest is the basic, when you get it right, you will get the rest right.

Maybe I'm wrong, but I seriously don’t care, that's what I think now, maybe I will change my point of view one day, but again, it doesn’t matter.

And do I care about what anyone thinks? Not really.

Am I an awful person? Haha, probably. 

Was I being honest here? Yes, I was, and I spoke my mind, that’s what matters to ME.

(2010 harvest) 2 out of 5, not bad, right?!

 (That was written in Dec 2010)

My 2010's first status was the things I wanted to do in that year, they were five things.

First, was graduating from my college and get the hell out! (Check)

Second, was working on my stories-start writing anyway. (Check)

Third, not losing any of my friends!!!! (x)

Forth, falling in love!!! (x)

Fifth, visit Italy!!! (x)

So, according to all of what happened last/this year, I got to accomplish are 2/5 of what I wanted to, but I don’t think I lost.

The two things I got to do are more important than the rest in my opinion.

Graduating from college, duh, it’s the most imp of them all, and YEAH, I did it and now I'm terrified lol, work and all!!! 

Then, I started working on my stories-fanfictions but they are a start-and got over my fear starting to write instead of wishing it, and that was one of the awesome-est things I ever done.

Now, the things I didn’t get to do, traveling, well, it can happen anytime so it's not a huge deal.

Love, blah!!! One day, no hurry and can't be scheduled, so it's off all the lists now!

Friends, sad but not my fault, and no, no one died. Though, death would have been easier coz its destiny not as harsh as losing a living friend who chose to walk away from my life and yeah, I can't fight for a lost cause, not worthy, want to go out, well, I won't stop you!!! Bye, bye!!! 

But, I didn’t lose that fight, because I got to have more friends, losing one and gaining few, they know themselves, and even though we actually didn’t meet some of them in person, it still can be called friendship, coz friendship can go beyond time and place, right? ;) 

I'm a woman, and proud!

To my Mother, my friends and for all the women in the world <3

Another why writing a blog, blog. But this time it’s a little different, its not just a personal matter or I'm going to talk about me being bored again, no, this time its about me being a woman, and about other women in the world who are proud of who they are. 

Today is the 8^th of March, or 'The International Women's Day', and this yeah 2011 it's on its 100 year anniversary too, so it’s a pretty huge deal.

The idea is, this year is my first time to take this day seriously, not that I didn’t face problems or I'm not proud of who I'm, but the idea is, that I've always got what I wanted, I was raised on asking for what I want and get it, as long as I'm right, I can't let anyone or anything to stop me, and that’s part of my faith as well. I've rights and I must ask for them and get them, even if 'someone' doesn’t like it. 

Also, I don’t think I did much this year too, changing my profile picture on Facebook or adding a label on Twitter, or even writing a blog about it makes me a huge activist, or one of the women who fought till the last drop of blood for their freedom and for protecting the rest of our rights, but it’s a try, a try to support a cause I'm part of it, liked it or not, I'm a woman, and it all starts from the moment I took my first breath when I came to this world, from the moment I was born. And as we – me and my girl friends – say all the time 'Girls gotta stick together' as simple as that seems, it’s a huge thing. Even by just a simple gesture, I know it will be appreciated.

I won't start saying the whole 'if women rules the world it'd be a better place' well, it will be a better place if we ruled the world, not 'men' but I won't start with this. Agreed? Okay, let's move on.

But we don't want to rule the world, we want our rights first, then ruling the world will come on its own later :P

I can hear a guy saying, 'what else do you want? You got everything you asked for!' Who didn’t hear this stupid sentence before? We all did.
Can someone swear or proof that women and men are 100% equals? Unfortunately no. And before jumping and bitching and whatever, read about it.  

And till that happens, we – Women – will not stop asking for our rights till we get them all, every single right, till then, we will keep working, spreading love and joy and show the whole world what we are capable of, how strong, yet loving we're, how we get over all the road blocks and still manage to be good mothers, sisters, daughters and friends. 

Happy International Women's Day to every single woman on the 'Mother' earth, you're one of a kind, you're beautiful and you deserve the best, today is a day just for you, be proud, strong and be yourself, don't let anything or anyone to get to you or tell you otherwise, you're perfect the way you're. You're perfect everyday, be proud of being a woman and we're all with you. 

P.S:  The logos for the day are in purple, so sorry for the color but it’s a statement. And here is the official site for the whole event. 

http://www.internationalwomensday.com/ 

The 'being bored' blog.

This is under the title 'Why writing a blog!' and this time, I'm just bored, so I decided to write a blog. Sue me! 

I was talking to my friend in a few and she asked me if I wrote any blogs today, and I said no, but now I'm just bored and wanted to share that with the world, yeah, I'm that crazy, if you know me and you're reading this, you probably already know that.

I write when I'm mad, happy or hyper. And it was the time to write when I'm bored, since I can't work on a creative writing, then bubbling about my boredom is cool, for me of course, probably who will read this will end up saying 'What the hell?' and curse me and themselves for reading such a crazy blog.

"Boredom is an emotional  state experienced during periods lacking activity or when individuals are uninterested in their surroundings. The first recorded use of the word boredom is in the novel Bleak House by Charles Dickens, written in 1852, in which it appears six times, although the expression to be a bore had been used in the sense of "to be tiresome or dull" since 1768. The French term for boredom, ennui, is sometimes used in English as well."

See, I'm not just bubbling then, boredom is a serious thing, emotional and all. But who cares, cause I don't care, all I know that I'm bored and writing few paragraphs when I'm bored takes forever, that's the boredom effect, doesn't let you write, read, or enjoy anything you would find. And now, I'm not bored anymore, so I'll end this and sorry for whoever is going to read this when I post it, because its one hell of a boring subject and a boring blog. I didn't know if I'm going to post this or not, but I'll, sorry, I won't edit it, because it boring, can't bring myself to read it, and I wrote it, ironic huh? 

Peace out!

Why Writing a Blog!

Why would I want to write a blog? Interesting, because I don't know myself, I mean, I only created this account in here cause I was pissed off. I tell you what happened.

I live in Egypt, and during the protests of 25th of January 2011, the government, the former government played tricks on us, they blocked Twitter, and then Facebook, because they finally got to understand how we - younger citizens - contact each others through those social networks sites, and they just got the brightest idea ever, to block them, and because they are smarter than the naughty toys in Toy Story 3, they didn't know that we had other ways to get on those sites, the proxy ways and the sites that allows you to hide your IP address. 

That takes us to why I got a Twitter, and blog even though I didn't want to, I was happy with my Facebook account. The reason was that I wanted to have an account on every single site that pisses off my government, fair enough, right?  I think whoever going to read this might agree with me, I don't even know who will read this, because I'm not a famous blogger, or even posted any before, and the reason I'm writing this now, that I remembered that I've an account and I didn't use yet, its a waste if I didn't use it. Plus, I just read one of my friends' blog, and I thought, 'huh, I remember having one, so why not give it a shot, and see what kind of crap I might come up with?' Smart huh? 

That's mostly why I wrote a blog, no one - including me - knows when or what I'm gonna write next time, or even who'll read this, but I'll like to keep the hopes high :D